You’ve tried, you really have, you’re saying
to your buddies at the bar, but there really is
no better way of describing her person
than as a book of maps pointing the direction
of your own. And you’re sorry, really—well, a little
sorry—that it’s ended this way, this compass
wheeling into all directions, those thighs
you gave yourself to, thought you’d do something
interesting with, but there you were,
tongue climbing the latitudes
of her body, thinking all the while mostly
of yourself: how those stories about her family
made you feel; that her irises’ foreign color
left you questioning your personal
and professional decisions. Her short arms
taught you yours are long; that your hair
looks best when a girl’s hands misbehave
inside it; that your fear of lightning
is normal—it’s fine, it’s really fine—and for all
of that, you owe her, you do, though you doubt
by now, she’d take it—anything—from
you, a week since your name in her mouth
has done cold, glossy things
to both your bodies. Do your impression
of her again—someone’s saying—but wait
til I get back, hikes the belt loops
of his Levi’s, brings another pitcher from the bar,
the beer disappearing like whole people do
into desire, and you’re lit with it, alive
and pulling at the air, entertaining them with how
her door was stuck just after you’d told her—
how she couldn’t get it open,
shoulder thrown against it, your mock-wild face
imitating her own’s attempt not to be,
and they’re howling now, because it’s funny.
They stack their cups like many glassy pieces
of an argument. Lie down with us
in our lives, they say, There is always more
of the world, they say, She is meaner now, and
more beautiful.