Susannah Hollister

Jack of Diamonds

After ten, faces. Try
thinking of one.

A thought boy, drawn,

but not like breath
or time or anything

you can put a hand on.

Then one morning the air
tastes safe, like nothing, like

something already yours,

and counting breaths just means
breathing, not counting,

or not counting up. The basic

requirements of a face too young
for its moustache, propped up

by collar, ribbon, chest.

All of it nested, and even
the thought sword, because a fist

grips the blade and the face stays

blank, must be covered, or too dull
for anything but show.

Three of Spades

Three is for you and me. For the face
of this cat that wants my cold air.

Your boots from above. What had been
oats, clouding, letting half the body

be alone with being alone. Anything
can be unlucky. A heart on a stick

is for the fourth brigade. A heart
that points up. A heart that could

turn dirt. Not a heart at all. Three
for the rules of this game. Live

a week. Pick a card. Tell me.

Eight of Clubs

Weeds like
weeds

would never grow,
alone,

safely placed to
prevent

touching or any
hope

of finding a fourth
leaf.

This should be
abundance,

leaves multiplying well
beyond

their number, keeping
us

counting. This should
be

nourishment, and for the
grazers

would be. Not force
tripled

and gripped. Not
rooms

shrinking in.
Not

this impossible garden
we

can neither tend nor
let

go.

Susannah Hollister

Susannah Hollister is co-editor of Gertrude Stein’s Stanzas in Meditation: The Corrected Edition (Yale, 2012). Her poems and essays have appeared in various journals. Most recently, an essay on her husband's 2010-2011 Army deployment to Afghanistan and their use of playing cards to mark time appears in Rumba Under Fire: The Arts of Survival from West Point to Delhi (punctum books, 2016). She and her family live in the Hudson Valley.

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