And it takes life. Because 21. I begin dancing at clubs. Because when I am 12 during White Trophy’s WestPac deployments, my neighbor, I will identify as Black Surrogate, takes me to the San Leandro rifle range. Because 18. I like to think I am a lesbian project. Because I reload my own .223 shells. Because I am in 7th grade. Because my first Soldier of Fortune magazine, a young Muhajadeen posed with AK47.