What's weird is that the nihilistic posture is the farthest thing from me
day to day my mind changes on heaven
canned tuna, Tapatio, Parmesan cheese
when I stopped watching Jersey Shore I thought it was a moral failing
everyone knows about high/low collapse
some poets won't really go too low in the end
they won't, on Two and a Half Men, spend prestige they could bend
all the way out to the Verizon. I wish poets were as good
at poetry as they are at resentment no I don't
buy me back from this ebb with a large margarita at the end of the boardwalk by the wheel
It isn't the obvious “high/low collapse” that makes the poem a perfect example of a boxcar, but the collapse is part of it. Rather, Ward's poem is boxcar-like because its tone is conversational, even colloquial, while relating the intricacies of that “high/low collapse.” In the stanza above, the reader is regaled with a smattering of pop culture references, but in the next stanza, Ward's diamond “bruises the heart to exaggerate its caustic obsolescence.” The tone remains, but there has been a shift in focus from the semiotics of low pop to a distinct emotionality, the complexity of which remains with Ward, to some degree. The boxcar door is open, but its wide screen is only so wide, and this limit is not a diminishing, but instead allows for a contained intricacy. Our next rail car is formally known as the Covered Hopper car, but is usually referred to as a grainer, given that most are carrying grain, feed, coke ash, and any number of other small particulates. Grainers are a study in contradictions: from an open, airy porch at either side, the transient being must place possessions and then themselves through a small hole which leads to a space that is large enough to sit up and lay down in, but in which it is nigh-impossible to stand. Though exquisitely safe and undetectable in these tiny spaces, the transient being is caught between a metallic cocoon and a promise of wind whipping across the face, the deeply fraying density of compression and the jolt of open light hitting the iris. After a lengthy excursion last year that ended in a 29-hour stint in a grainer hole, I found myself reading Aimé Césaire's Solar Throat Slashed (trans. A. James Arnold & Clayton Eshleman). Enthralled by the lushness of language compacted, I like to think of his work as a grainer— a place where possible trance is available in a crowd of images, but where such exuberance must be shuttled into a shudderingly small space as a matter of necessity. The intensity of such an operation can be found in the poem “Turn of Events”:Truly the stockjobbing of the birds of paradise no longer makes the rose of
the winds fade and when I open the cage of my eyelids when I unglove my
nested sparrowhawks and release them in a relaxing of eyeballs where the
pollen of hunger noiselessly carries out the lofty miracle of fecundating the
sterile flower of despair
(froth of the word tossed thoughtlessly amidst the flames of a silence
just concretion perceived by my excessively vivacious left breast
excrescence of the most uncivilized habits of my big toes
to my will dragging the scraps of the world
to my will silting up with more and more feeble gasps that I array quite nicely
as wisely defunct worlds)
Inside the grainer, only “scraps of the world” are seen, the fullness of “the birds of paradise” and prevailing winds unable to be fully grasped. Césaire later writes of “the nothingness of eyes,” and this is perhaps the most potent way of thinking of a poem-cum-grainer: the blankness of the inner world entombed in industrial efficiency, the impossibility of efflorescence despite its possibility and proximity just outside the grainer hole. Thus a grainer poem is images and thoughts compressed and “fecundating the sterile flower of despair,” a sort of impossibility that the poet wrangles with at every turn. This wrestling with what Césaire calls “the nothingness of the city” that is not a nothingness at all, or the revolt “against the order of the road system” that can only be enacted on a different yet similar system: these are integral aspects of the life of the transient being, but also of the poet writing in and through a climate of teletechnological prowess in the ever-widening web of capital. Though hopping freight trains is not for everyone, the activity's ability to inform a poetics is palpable to me, and I hope this sequence of blog posts has made it so for you, too, dear readers of Drunken Boat. Perhaps it is best to end on the thought that freight-hopping can be thought of as “an outward manifestation of an inner escape,” a phrase utilized often by legendary hobo graffiti writer buZ blurr. That poetry can be thought of in the same way, in its search for the ineffable and its dwelling in the interstices, is not a coincidence. -TED REES Ted Rees is a poet and essayist who spends most of his time in West Oakland, California, but travels around the western US on a regular basis. His current work focuses on environmental degradation and the struggles of wage labor. Previous writings can be found in the Double Burst featurette with Jared Stanley (Supersuperette 2014), Armed Cell, Elderly, Eleven Eleven, Ragtag, and a number of other publications both online and off. His two chapbooks include Outlaws Drift in Every Vehicle of Thought (Trafficker Press 2013) and Like Air (BentBoyBooks 2012). Forthcoming in December is chapbook of travel and train poems from Mondo Bummer.