I am reading the obituaries,
looking for my Mother, and I find her
name bolded: wife, musician, deceased.
I wake up hung-over
with fatigue— I check my phone for news.
Now she’s standing in a hallway,
draped in a long black coat. I’m dying
she whispers, and I pull her in close,
feel her wet cheek touching mine;
I want to scream you don’t have to go—
I’m trying to fit the coat around us both,
but the wool won’t stretch. I yank
at the buttons, but they won’t reach—
our trunks wrestle for room,
our arms fight for space inside a sleeve,
I’m suffocating. The wild horse
appears. I hop on its back,
and we gallop off, and I wonder
why the horse has come for me—